Motherhood Series (I)

You’ve often heard people say “motherhood will humble you” and somehow you just see it as people overblowing the experience or an unconscious attempt at self importance.

But 16 days into this motherhood journey, I can make bold to say it as I have been humbled in more ways than I could ever thought possible.

It started from the moment they brought the little beautiful bundle to me to view before they whisked her away. I had heard her crying from my sleepy state but after more than 12 hours of labour and 10 hours of active labour, nothing was strong enough to keep me awake. When I saw her beautiful face, I let out tears of joy and relief. Finally, I am meeting this known stranger who has been a part of me so far and she is way more beautiful and cute than I thought.

The implication of motherhood hit a day after and replaced the excitement I woke up with the day before. This is an actual human being that is fully dependent on me. Then comes the worry: is she fine? Why is she shaking? Why is she making sounds in her sleep? Is she breathing well? Is she too hot or cold? And finally, I understand why parents pamper their children. Her tears made me cry. Her loud protest when I put her to breast made me a wreck because I could not bear her heart rending cry.

The first few days were dedicated to google search- why is my baby sneezing? Are hiccups normal? How to make my baby suck..etc.

And the journey just started.